I've been going through old journals and just found this gem: ;)
WHAT IF YOU WERE A FISH, CONFINED TO A FISH TANK, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? All you can do is swim. And eat. There are no options to leave. You can’t go to another fish tank or the open sea. You’re here in this fish tank in this Honda dealership in Bellevue, WA.
Somebody once told me fish tanks’ sizes are not cruel because fish don’t remember where they’ve been long enough to realize they’re so confined.
But what about when they bump up against the tank? What’s that like for a fish that’s never known anything else versus a fish that remembers life in the sea? Well if what I heard about fish memory is true, there’d be no memory, no comparison to anything else. It just simply would be.
Fish can just be.
Do they think though? I’m watching this clown fish swim and float and look around. Is it really looking? Is it thinking? What is a fish’s consciousness like?
If my consciousness were trapped in a fish’s body, in a fish tank, I’d either go crazy or I’d learn how to fully surrender, accept what is, and be at peace with being so limited.
But I’m not a fish. I’m a human being. A human being so recently caught up in doing that she almost forgot how free she truly is. There is nothing I need to do or not do. There is nowhere I should or shouldn’t be. I am free. Free to be me, no matter how much that changes or whatever that means.
And free to come and go as I please, regardless of doubts and fears about money, business, the future.
The future is unknown. All that’s known now is even so fleeting as the now becomes the past and the future becomes the now that then becomes the past.
You can try to freeze time. You can try to really know something. But what can you ever know other than that the only constant is change? And that includes all the changes in what we can know to be true. But only if you open up to that, only if you allow it to be so, only if you can relinquish control or the burning desire to know, and instead just observe and go with the flow. Riding the waves.
Deep thoughts in an aquarium….
Rebecca Clio Gould is a Certified Sheng Zhen Teacher and Holistic Wellness Coach. Her specialties include self-love, embodied joy, women's sexuality, spirituality, surgery preparation, and trauma recovery. She is also a Supreme Science Qigong Instructor, Essence vs Form Coach, and Award-winning Author of "The Multi-Orgasmic Diet: Embrace Your Sexual Energy and Awaken Your Senses for a Healthier, Happier, Sexier You."